Well, HELLOOOOOO DEVIANTART!
I'm back after a 1.5 year hiatus! God where do I even start with what's been happening in my life?! Way too much to talk about in one little journal entry, but here's to trying! *raises glass*

Okay so in a nutshell:
Freeza didn't work out. Neither did SYN.fm ..BUT, i've almost completed a certificate 2 in music industry and next year i'm going on to do the certificate 3. I love it. Great people, fun times, AND I actually get a chance to run recording sessions so it's a big step up from where I was a year and a half ago.

Also, my boyfriend is now my fiance and we couldn't be happier. He proposed in March on a quiet Saturday morning in his bedroom. I cried like a baby, it was ridiculous but it was the reaction he was hoping for haha. But we are incredibly happy and excited to spend the rest of our lives with each other. I couldn't ask for anything better than that.

Hmm, what else has been going on...i'm going on a trip to Cairns in a few weeks to escape this horrible, erratic weather. It was 23 today and the rest of the week will be cold and rainy. So that will be fun, i'm going with Rob (my fiance) and my dad. Hopefully i'll get some kind of tan happening haha. But even with all my wishful thinking I still can't see it lol.

I think i'll leave it at that for fear I have nothing interesting left to say and you'll be tortured by my ramblings.
Good morning, good evening and goodnight.

January 5th? That was the last time I updated this thing? Well, I guess I have a fair bit to share with the lovely people of DeviantArt.

So since January 5th, I got my L's, went to Manda's 19th which was a hell of a time. Didn't get home until 4:30am. Actually no. I didn't get home at all, I ended up at Rob's house and went home at a more decent hour that same day lol. Bang nightclub, kids. I highly recommend it. Dancing on podiums to Slipknot, Placebo and Deftones while a strobe light freaks your friends out because they're waaaay too wasted to comprehend that their movements haven't slowed down, they're just pissed? Can't top it.

Also, Melbourne party-goers: DO NOT BOTHER WITH THE NIGHT RIDER. Catch a cab, wait for the trains to start running again or mug somebody and take their wallet if you don't have the money for a cab. I dunno. Just don't bother with the Night Rider. Rob and I left Bang around 3:30am, and the night rider was 20 minutes fucking late. It sucks.

Fast forward a month and a bit, and i'm sitting at a table with a guy who looks like he could be a real asshole, and evidently - is. He is trying to intimidate me by asking me all these questions and having this deadpan look on his face the whole time. Totally not impressed by me at all. If you haven't gathered, I was at my very first job interview. I didn't think I had much of a chance of getting the job. But to cut a long and boring story short, I was notified the same day that I had the job and I started that same week. That man's name is Cyrus and he's one of my managers lol. I'm still working there now and getting taxed 49% every week but that's a story for another day.

I've quit FreeZa now, I know in my last entry I mentioned having a meeting with Vivenne Levy about joining. I left on good terms, I just explained to everyone that it wasn't in the direction that I wanted to be heading, and Viv was completely understanding of that, she knew my goal from the beginning. But I thanked them for the experience and I was on my merry way. As of next month i'm starting volunteer work at a community radio station called syn.fm. This time I get to put my grubby little hands on a mixer and some actual sound equipment. I'm v excited.
In addition to that, i'm gonna be playing around with a program called Adobe Audition, I just need to install it. It's always motivation that's the key isn't it?

So, as you can see i'm feeling particularly love dazed, or love sick - depending on how you want to put it. Rob and I are still together, going strong and approaching our first anniversary which is in May. I'm not sure how we're going to celebrate but in all the excitement of wanting to do something, I forgot the most important thing: I could be anywhere in the world and it wouldn't be the same unless he was right there next to me. If we lay in bed all day and watch movies then that's okay too. I'm so in love with him, I don't think anybody has a clue except him and I like it that way.

Well, i'm gonna get off the computer, get out of my work uniform and start enjoying my day and a bit off. I'll check in later to update. =]

Sam,
xoxo

<center>"Yeah can't you hear my motored heart, you're the one that started it..."</center>

So, I know I jabbered on about this refurbishing of my wardrobe doors, and it STILL hasn't happened. BUT, it will be finished very soon. My dad took the liberty of stripping down the paint for me because it's been way too hot and i'm not one for hard labour haha. Plus, i've barely been home since about the 20th of December. In fact, I just got home from spending 10 days with my boyfriend yesterday. There was his birthday, then New Year's Eve, then we saw movies and he got his eyebrow pierced and we hung out with friends. It was crazy busy. But I had fun. So i'll probably re-paint them tomorrow, depending on how my plans pan out. If not tomorrow, then it won't be until maybe Wednesday or Thursday.

On Monday morning I have a meeting with a woman called Vivienne about joining the FreeZa committee. They plan and organise events for young people in my area, particularly "Battle Of The Bands", where local bands can get exposure and win prizes and stuff. I'm pretty stoked about getting to do that so hopefully it works in my favour.

Then on Tuesday i'm going to VicRoads to sit my L's test, i'm about two years behind all of my friends so it's about time that I did it. For those who don't live in Australia, the L's test is to get your learner driver permit which you now have to be on for a year before you can get your P's (probationary license).

Oooh so much news, I almost forgot! If I pass my L's test, then i'll finally have proof that i'm 18. Which means that I can go out to Bang nightclub next Saturday for Manda's 19th birthday, and it also means that if Rob passes his P's test on Monday, he can pick me up and take me to Sexyland (sex shop) on Tuesday afternoon hahaha! Works out perfectly.

PS: Target was having a sale on women's underwear, so I went nuts and spent 80 dollars on underwear haha. I also bought this pretty sweet bag for 15 bucks. It's red leopard print with black leather handles.

For a few years now, i've had a mental love affair with seeing fairy lights on big trees at night. Shame, I only see it at christmas time. There's nothing quite like the feeling I get when I see that and I don't know why it's so aesthetically and emotionally pleasing to me. I guess I grew up watching Disney movies, and it got me thinking about sentiment once I was old enough to understand what that word meant. I always imagined having some significant event happen under a tree with fairy lights. Maybe the moment would carry as much magic as the atmosphere creates in my mind and I anticipate the day when it might happen and i'll be swept away completely.

I just wish a certain person somehow knew without me telling him this. In my mind, the person to sweep me off my feet is gallant and romantic, but at the same time playful. He would know that was exactly what I wanted.

It's 1:27 in the morning. My pumpkin coach is now just a pumpkin and I need to get my beauty sleep. Over and out.

The stress has subsided only to be replaced by boredom - and the creative gene kicking into overdrive. I've been busting a nut for a week trying to think of something to do - aaaaand I got it!

I'm going to re-paint my wardrobe doors!

At the moment, it's full of graffiti such as, "Limpy is a gay faggot", and various talk about bum cracks haha. So yeah, a paint job is in order. It's going to be grey to match my carpet and skirting, which in itself isn't so fascinating, but I plan to stencil some shit on there which will be rad. I want it to be inspired by old school navy tattoos. You know, nautical stars, block writing - that kind of thing.

I'm excited about it anyhow, i'll post before and after pics when it's done. =]